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I am sitting here pondering considering life and considering,  what is happiness?   To me happiness is every time I look at my children or anytime I help somebody out in life.  The joys of life can never be expressed in a sense of material worth, it can be expressed by being adored and adoring back, empathy for others having more self value than self value.  Now people just walk on by , ignorance of the world around them, the poverty , the sadness, the hurt that most people would just rather ignore.  I remember the last chance I had to get away, I went Blackpool a couple of days with the kids and their mum.  We sat on the pier listening to the sea ,  that was happiness, we were together and nature provided the scene.  Now one night walking back to the Bed and breakfast,  while passing the McDonald's on the promenade, I noticed a young lady sitting there on the pavement who was obviously homeless. I could not help myself , I sat down beside her and started to talk to her.  She explained her life , I felt for her,  gave her a tenner help her out.  But what touched me , my children gave her their doughnuts they had bought earlier on from the pier. 
 
So to summon up happiness , bringing joy to others is joy to oneself.  Here is a song of happiness, look at the happiness this young lady has. 

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I'm thinking, perhaps like you, happiness is about being alive, not just as one person, but sharing that with others.

"life" is what's available to us, the great sphere we live in....to share more is to get closer to the greater.

Clearly its not a selfie, its shared moment to moment with those around us.

believe me, its true.....trusting in how we could head that way to a greater good confirms God is good.....because it works.....because "life" works.

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Happiness:

Its getting the 90's.

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I found the answer to my Universe,  because I am.....

I speak to supersede all the time, 

The lord came to me and with a silent high pitched whistle spoke softly in my ear,   

''be strong, deceive and take,  give thy rewards to  thy needy ''

The lord is so wise,  he knows ,  he will beat the evil  no matter which path the lord takes,  one is bright like a shining star, one will work out the magic and work out the universe , in doing this one can smile.  All my life I have give, never been a taker, take and give, with just a few crumbs for myself . 


For thy light shines a new path and you did not foresee my help from God,  I don't need YOU to tell me when God tells me everything.   You cannot see or hear God because your own ignorance does not allow you this honor. If I lose in this life , I will be back in the next to try again, eventually the walls of Jerico will fall into the sea.

God knows happiness, it is never too late for forgiveness,   you have to have trust in God , God knows what God is doing. 

On a more happier note , living is like

I was there , didn't need hard drugs to enjoy myself,  what a rush......

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And who needs to worry?

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Well that's another day gone by,  bedtime soon.  I was rather bored today so just posted lots of rubbish.   It felt good to just post random sh1t instead of always discussing science.  Anyway bedtime for me, my boys birthday so going out for the day somewhere in the morning. 

Goodnight all. 

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Well I got up to take my boy out and he decided he did not want to go out as a family, he wanted to spend the day playing outside with his sister and friends.  Tea party it is then.....

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Well having a  good day so far, my boy is running around happy with his friend.   I have lots of friends I should visit more often, probably 100's of friends when I consider everyone I know, I must get in touch with  them .

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Anyway folks, it is that time of month again, the pay the internet bill challenge.  However with a £50 council tax bill out of £90 in the bank, this next month will be looking gloomy and doubtful. 

Survive by the day, that is what we do......

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Well guys and girls, I think this is the end of the road for me.  A science outcast who gave ideas away in hope of achieving and building something special.  I guess I was stupid after all and my notions were worthless.  I also think through thinking so hard about Science, I now need to go the doctors for extensive brain damage treatment.

Thanks in a sincere, sarcastic way, it was an experience.

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When to See a Doctor
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https://www.healthline.com/symptom/confusion

Let me think , when did my confusion start ? 

About a decade ago doctor when science told me I was wrong.

delirium
dɪˈlɪrɪəm/Submit
noun
an acutely disturbed state of mind characterized by restlessness, illusions, and incoherence, occurring in intoxication, fever, and other disorders.

Oh yes indeed, ''illusions'' that cost me about £100 in trying to win the lotto.  Restlessness , that sounds about right at 3.15 am .

I have the answer , happiness is when you die.

Yes that makes sense , it can't be nonsense,you can't be sad when you are dead,  no hurt, absolute nothingness, how bliss. 

On that note a poem

I put the rope around my neck
look to the ground
with no regret.....

Hang on , can't type from over there, try again

I put the rope around my neck
look to the ground
with no regret
for God I have not met yet
So just let....let be......


I am still alive , not to worry , I like to feel sad, it lets me know I am alive.  I need to find myself a women to talk too, there is more to life than just science.

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Darn't it, my main computer just broke and now won't reboot. 


Added- Fixed it, but it not running very well now for some reason. I will have to clean up my files, probably adware .

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pffff, I am indecisive today , don't know what to post , 

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Regret, New Order:

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pffff, I am indecisive today , don't know what to post ,

When I've found British utopia, this gets me back:

Follow on...

Best way to start the day.

Its not saying "let them eat cake".....its "whatever".

The trouble of the world we live in is of course how "high" is defined and who knows how to fly for sake of needing to fly.

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pffff, I am indecisive today , don't know what to post ,

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lol still don't know what to post...I don't feel inspired today, I think I may be getting better now.

This noise is bad .....

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Lab V Nature:

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Lab V Nature:

Well it is normally midnight Sunday , the internet goes off when the bill is not paid, so surfing for me will be no more I guess.
I guess it is game over being an internet surfer.