I find consistently that when I need extra sparkle in my personal performance that I can reach down deep inside of me and find it in
the restrained, pooled, redirected energy that is sexual energy inside of me. I am so grateful that I have this energy revenue source...
Not that I don't love sex, I surely do!
I see sexual energy like extra money in the bank. If you spend it unwisely, you're "screwed." AND you pay for it
later. I'm glad you have the discipline to manage it like you do. Me too. I can't afford the loss it entails when I'm
wasted from an orgasm. Even though I have made progress, it's still nebulous and I don't want to risk the level of
exhaustion that comes when my body can't afford to lose that reserve. I'm hoping my ongoing hormone therapy
will resolve this and give me back the energy I need not just for sex, but for better overall functioning. That would
be a real healing for me.