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Here's something I struggle to understand. Why oh why did my own body decide to pick the worst timing possible to have an N.E.? I don't believe that when we're unconcious our brains have forgotten what's happening in our lives and are suddenly unaware of important events coming up. So why this self destruction? I write this now in the early hours of the morning as an example of the despair that POIS causes. Please forgive me for ranting.At least this forum exists and for that I'm grateful.
Here's something I struggle to understand. Why oh why did my own body decide to pick the worst timing possible to have an N.E.? I don't believe that when we're unconcious our brains have forgotten what's happening in our lives and are suddenly unaware of important events coming up. So why this self destruction? I write this now in the early hours of the morning as an example of the despair that POIS causes. Please forgive me for ranting.Yesterday I was feeling really happy and positive. I work freelance and have a very important but exciting contract that starts in a couple of days. I also have a fun social gathering planned tonight. Just now I had my first N.E. in a very long time. Noooooo! Why now?! Instantly the world comes crashing down and an exciting and uplifting time becomes the exact opposite in seconds. I'm left wondering whether I should phone in ill and incapable of fulfilling my contract which I can't really afford to do financially or go ahead with the work knowing that I can't perform like I normally would and leave my big name client disappointed and potentially reluctant to hire me again. This job was a big break for me and I was feeling good about it. The contract lasts a week with potentially more work to follow later in the year off the back of it. My POIS episodes last at least a week. On the day the contract starts it'll be day 3 of POIS symptoms, days 3-5 are traditionally my worst. Why oh why would my body pick now to do this? You'd think even whilst subconcious my brain would've known by now the consequences of having an NE now. I used to stress and worry about N.E.'s because this isn't the first time an NE has come at a bad time. Everytime some important work came up I would worry that an NE might ruin it which often meant not sleeping well. Sometimes I somehow 'knew' the night before an NE struck that an NE was likely to strike and I was often right. But I haven't worried about NE's for a few years now and life has been better for it. I've adopted a strategy for coping with POIS. For the most part I steer clear of masturbation for as long as possible but when the urge is getting great or I think it soon will I identify a period when I can afford some downtime and masturbate then. This relieves urges and, once recovered, I'm often able to go another long period (month or more) without POIS symptoms until I pick another time when I can relieve myself without it affecting work and social life too much. This calculated masturbation coupled perhaps with just getting older seems to have pretty much eliminated the N.E. lottery from my life. I just don't really have NE's anymore. Until now. Now I'm faced with a prime example of how POIS ruins our lives. And I can't just phone my client and say bear with me mate, I've got really bad Post Orgasmic Illness syndrome this week. I just thought I'd better let you know because I'm not always as vague and vacant as this. Usually I'm actually quite fun to be around and quite sharp. Despite appearances I'm actually good at my job. Aaaagh!Its exactly occasions like this when we desperately need something we can take that gives instant relief like the northisterone did for the guy in Dr Dexter's paper. I talked to a GP about northisterone showing her Dr Dexter's paper and Dr Waldinger's. She ran a mile. Understandably she explained she didn't have the necessary expertise and would never prescribe northisterone to a man. I need to find a willing GP because if northisterone works for me then boy do I need it at a time like this. I fear with the weekend upon me that I won't get any in time to help me this week though. At least this forum exists and for that I'm grateful.
mellivora, my heart goes out to you sincerely, empathetically, and with a heavy dose of recognition.I don't know if it's any consolation, but I'll take it a step further: why - when we're conscious, not asleep - do we sabotage our own well being at the worst time possible? Maybe I shouldn't say "we"; it's certainly true of my experience for DECADES.The only way I can explain it (in my case) is _denial_ . I somehow, in spite of decades' experience to the contrary, believed that THIS time will be different!...insanity!
Demo,I can identify with your comment as well. It took me many years of horror before I realized I should be chaste. Now things are not perfect but at least the POIS monster is usually locked up, which is a far cry from what I used to live with.
So if you don't do the in-pois, the out-of-pois probably won't mean much.
I think we are all pretty amazing for staying as positive as we do under the circumstances.
since my own doctor was the one who told me about progesterone/testosterone being used as a male contraceptive, i may be able to convince her to let me try it. since the contraceptive is not out on the market i would have to take a low dose progesterone pill and wear a very low dose testosterone patch to make my own. this would effectively rule out a few major theories we have (FSH, LH and sperm).now wait everybody dont go running out and trying out this new concoction, i am going to take one for the team here. my gp will probably have to send me to and endo for this one, and once i get there i will probably have to dazzle the endo with magic tricks to get it prescribed.if the fact that the male contraceptive can remove FSH, LH, and SPERM from your body and still have your body running perfectly does not impress you, than you are not impressible.this is my dream experiment come true for pois.