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New Theories / Re: Post Orgasmic Illness Syndrome (POIS)
« on: 29/04/2015 03:32:50 »
For those who followed my story, I made a dumb yet important discovery. [!]
I was having brain fog and fatigue all daytime and could only ejaculate at night to evade POIS. The problem was melatonin (causes autoimmunity and fatigue in some cases), the sleep aid I used to fix the insomnia caused by elevated Testosterone at night due to TRT (note that testosterone is low at night when regulated by natural production). I have lowered the dose and I am 45% more functional, yet I struggle with insomnia because all sleep aids that work (drugs and melatonin) have nasty cognition impairing side effects.
Exploring my sexuality I discovered that my circumcision at birth made my penis 100% numb, I have no pleasure whatsoever, yes I am serious, sex turned out to be pointless. All women I came across were self conceited monsters that only saw me as a utility to exploit. They often abhorred my kindness and love because they see them as weakness, contrary to the media and society that depicts men as soulless beasts and women as sentimental angels . It seems I am destined to be sexually frustrated all my miserable existence unable to fulfill a basic biological necessity. I will eventually pursue sex however, because free will is a lie as many of you already know, existence is slavery, the death of governments, religion and all society would only leave one tyrant left, biology. At least normal humans could be happy with that, but I can't. Note that I still have POIS (reduced, not gone).
Looking back I have always been very frail physically after being vaccinated as a prepubescent child and had prednisone shoved down my throat for an asthma and autoimmune issues vaccines created, when I hit 14 Crohn's came and I took more steps back. Sadly TRT has not fixed that. Months ago I had a chest and forearm injury doing some light stretching that could never injure a normal human being that is almost taking a year to heal. I am now nearly completely incapacitated physically when I was starting to restore my intellect. I wonder if anyone else here breaks like a twig?
I wanted to die, but can't kill myself because of fear caused by religious indoctrination imposing the fear of after life to be judged by a god with one dimensional morality that is oblivious to context, biology and reason.
I still crave to cease to exist but I have gone one step too far, I want to see if I can overcome this pain, but my resolve falters. Sorry for the rant, I just could not resist.
I was having brain fog and fatigue all daytime and could only ejaculate at night to evade POIS. The problem was melatonin (causes autoimmunity and fatigue in some cases), the sleep aid I used to fix the insomnia caused by elevated Testosterone at night due to TRT (note that testosterone is low at night when regulated by natural production). I have lowered the dose and I am 45% more functional, yet I struggle with insomnia because all sleep aids that work (drugs and melatonin) have nasty cognition impairing side effects.
Exploring my sexuality I discovered that my circumcision at birth made my penis 100% numb, I have no pleasure whatsoever, yes I am serious, sex turned out to be pointless. All women I came across were self conceited monsters that only saw me as a utility to exploit. They often abhorred my kindness and love because they see them as weakness, contrary to the media and society that depicts men as soulless beasts and women as sentimental angels . It seems I am destined to be sexually frustrated all my miserable existence unable to fulfill a basic biological necessity. I will eventually pursue sex however, because free will is a lie as many of you already know, existence is slavery, the death of governments, religion and all society would only leave one tyrant left, biology. At least normal humans could be happy with that, but I can't. Note that I still have POIS (reduced, not gone).
Looking back I have always been very frail physically after being vaccinated as a prepubescent child and had prednisone shoved down my throat for an asthma and autoimmune issues vaccines created, when I hit 14 Crohn's came and I took more steps back. Sadly TRT has not fixed that. Months ago I had a chest and forearm injury doing some light stretching that could never injure a normal human being that is almost taking a year to heal. I am now nearly completely incapacitated physically when I was starting to restore my intellect. I wonder if anyone else here breaks like a twig?
I wanted to die, but can't kill myself because of fear caused by religious indoctrination imposing the fear of after life to be judged by a god with one dimensional morality that is oblivious to context, biology and reason.
I still crave to cease to exist but I have gone one step too far, I want to see if I can overcome this pain, but my resolve falters. Sorry for the rant, I just could not resist.