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New Theories / Re: Self doubt/harm to the extent that you learn to damage your body - OCD link?
« on: 12/08/2019 15:05:04 »
Saw this linked from another thread. While I imagine OP is long gone by now (from this forum I mean..), I can also do this. Specifically, while experimenting with moving an as of yet unidentifiable sensation through my body, I decided to take a stab at inflicting pain on myself (through concentration only). I did it while lying down in bed, remaining completely motionless, fully relaxed, not tensing any muscles. I did it in my left leg, a bit above the ankle. I chose the left leg specifically because I rarely do anything on that half of my body, as everything seems to come easier on the right. The goal in this case was to take the sensation I felt, and try to...overload it into a single spot. Focus so strongly into an area of my leg that it would hurt from the excess.
The result of the attempt was a pretty strong, warm, radiating pain that lasted a few seconds after I stopped deliberately causing it. It came on pretty suddenly, and isn't anything I typically feel while lying down doing nothing. I was not asleep or drifting at the time.
All that being said, I'm not one for self inflicting harm, so I didn't repeat this process. I have no desire to suffer internal injuries from this practice. The attempt itself was just an experiment while trying to determine whether or not the sensation I felt I could move through my body was real or not. I figured if I could successfully use the sensation to cause myself pain via overload, it would be real enough in my book.
So just thought I'd chime in to say that at least one person has done what you seemed to have been describing.
The result of the attempt was a pretty strong, warm, radiating pain that lasted a few seconds after I stopped deliberately causing it. It came on pretty suddenly, and isn't anything I typically feel while lying down doing nothing. I was not asleep or drifting at the time.
All that being said, I'm not one for self inflicting harm, so I didn't repeat this process. I have no desire to suffer internal injuries from this practice. The attempt itself was just an experiment while trying to determine whether or not the sensation I felt I could move through my body was real or not. I figured if I could successfully use the sensation to cause myself pain via overload, it would be real enough in my book.
So just thought I'd chime in to say that at least one person has done what you seemed to have been describing.