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New Theories / Post Orgasmic Illness Syndrome (POIS)
« on: 24/10/2011 16:49:21 »
Hello friends. today I finally investigated about the problems that I've been through and got to know the name of the disease that I've been in :POIS. Even at this time I am feeling mental illness because today I went through ejaculation once again. I've the same story as that of John, who I guess started this topic over here. I deliberately watch videos that excite me, or just imagine such things that excite me, to overcome my boredom or frustration from life, but the after effects of that make me feel like losing my personality. I've tried keeping myself away from imagining such things, and 1 or 2 times I even succeeded for a continuous period of more than 4 months. Sometimes I'm only able to hold or try indulging myself in more meaningful activities for a few weeks, and as the time pass by, the mental illness also start fading. But then, when once again I fall into imagining things that excite me, or watch such videos, I fall back in that same extreme mental tiredness and then start over again recovering. This has been my story since I was 14 I guess and now I am 21. I've tried to find answers of what it is really and the only answer I've got each time is: I need to find the activities of my real interest, hence indulging myself in them will free me of this thing and it will eventually disappear from my life. I've found many such activities, and today I feel much more sure about myself, I don't get that much interested in imagining or watching (man and woman) clips(the thing that has been exciting me and feeling me like losing myself in doing so). But yet, I haven't overcome this as yet, and I still look to find more in myself, to finally be able to say myself free. I've often felt during this course, that sex is only a temporary pleasure, and I needn't have it for pleasure even after marriage, as such a thing (as I read also today when I was investigating) get me to lose my true self, I can just have this thing as a formality to produce children after marriage, and as I've learnt through all these years, love doesn't need physical contact to express. Its the care which is most divine and is free from physical excitement. Physical contact is good, but not for the sake of pleasure, its good just as an expression of love. And as I experience more and more about love(the care), I feel or I do know that excitement will become unimportant for me and hence I'll always be free of the terrible consequences of it that I've been through. It will just be a matter of time that I'll be free of the mental illness and find myself real emotionally stable.