[The Spoon]

I have enough problems in my life with illness and being a carer to deal with anymore BS.  I have spent nearly a full year not going out of the house mainly, whats it called?  A poverty trap. 

Oh I feel like shouting at somebody alright,  this world proper pisses me off, the act of selfishness in this world is unreal.  I have always cared for people and looked out for people , I can't say I have anybody who cares or looks out for me. 

Science , what was the point?  Why did I ever bother to be laughed at .  Tried to get a job and that failed , wouldn't even give me a sh1t job to do .

Well I am proper pissed off now, although I knew from the start, but  hoped I would get somewhere and was wrong. 

Anyway thanks for waking me up, now I am awake I can go make some money the ways I know best.  See you soon no doubt , you know where my door is . 

First job ring a solicitor for sueing purposes, second job ring an independent news paper to tell them my story and give them all the screenshots. Whoops did I say screenshots.....


Anyway , after reading all that , don't you think I deserve an academy award for the performance I just give 


All of this internet and I can't get a proper job from it, wow man that is sick.

You do realise that you need to pay a solicitor?

[guest39538]

You do realise that you need to pay a solicitor?

I never considered that . 

edit: Oh well, only a couple of hrs left then I can ring the docs see what he says.  Hopefully he wwill give me an afternoon appoinment sio I can grab a couple of hrs kip, I feel so drained. 

[guest39538]

Just remember who you are and smile,

Take the red pill or the blue pill ?

Lets party and take them both

 


I bet this forum as never had a party going on until now,  whoop whoop , whoop whoop , party....

Yoyoyooo, hands in the air, drop them E's like we just don't care, please share 

A shout out to the massive, sing it now

[guest39538]

Lets go mental now, a new world record for a science forum disco . Whoop whoop

[guest39538]

Still awake, thinking I might start playing games again, I use to love gaming at one time, running around with a squad killing the red team off.  Gaming is good for stress,  let off some aggression but at the same time keeping a decorum and gaming etiquette.
I was never really any good at gaming , use to try to get a sniper rifle and pick off the targets to gain score and rank. One for hiding behind objects and waiting for that clear shot, but mostly some smart ass comes from behind and stabs you up , then stands over you just to rub it in .  Then of course there is the spawn point campers, you spawn then die, a proper bitch when that happens.
Tank v troops, come get some bitches, but then in comes the air and wipes you out or the c4 guy frags your ass back to spawn point.   Mad as, there is always a top player who scores loads, 1 shot kills like magic guided bullets.
My moods are up and down today, feeling ok though seems I have had no sleep for ...ohhhhh lolz. 

 

[guest39538]

Well time for bed, I did it and stayed awake all day to reset my body clock .   

Arranged my day for going out with the kids so all good ,  hope the weather stays nice.

It sort of feels good to blog, although I talk mostly sh1t.  I think talking absolute sh1t is good for the mind. 

I sometimes wish I knew who I was actually talking to on here, anybody could be anybody and it is hard to imagine what people are like in reality. 

Anyway I am going to try and go to sleep now, good night folks. 

[smart]

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.

If you don't believe yet that Thebox has a great spirit then you're probably a fool or having a very mediocre mind.

tk

[guest39538]

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.

If you don't believe yet that Thebox has a great spirit then you're probably a fool or having a very mediocre mind.

tk

Jack Daniels is a great spirit 

Hi all, I had a lovely sleep, I feel great now, sorted out a few things today for my day out tomorrow with the kids.  I hope the weather is nice , but if not who cares , I will still enjoy my day out with the kids.  Fetched my tablets this morning so I will sleep much better now at night. 
Feeling a lot calmer, perhaps my mind is finally finding some peace in the sense of sanity and happiness being the love for my children and providing them with a bit of happiness in their lives. 
I have discovered an important lesson in life , sometimes , me , myself and I , is the importance of looking after ones own mental health.  From now on , me, myself and I , is also going to look out for me , myself and I, remain true to this and hopefully get healthier in the process.   Tomorrow a new dawn and a new day for me, a bit of exercise and some fresh air, lets not forget the picnic , beef, lettuce, spring onion and mustard, what more could one want on a English day out. 

 

 

[guest39538]

My legs ache, Matlock and Carsington waters have done me in lol, but kids enjoyed themselves so all good.  Managed to stay dry all day as well so a bonus .
Coffee time I thinks , 

[David Cooper]

Very happy to hear that it went well.

[guest39538]

Very happy to hear that it went well.

Thank you David, I am going to find something else to do with them at the weekend. 

[guest39538]

What to do today ?  The weather is not great today as yet, maybe later it will brighten up some.  I cannot decide what to do ,maybe I will watch a movie or two with the kids, maybe not. 
How these school summer holidays are flying by , towards the end I have got to buy school uniforms, how absurd school uniforms are, more needless expensives in life.

[Nika2003]

Happiness is not an emotion. It's not just an emotion. It is a state of mind, a state of being that permeates our existence. Or, at least, it would be if we fix it.
Happiness - or a state of happiness - is not something that you giggle all the time. In addition to the fact that this is not a very functional state, it, like most people, will be fairly pointed out, it is impossible
Happiness does not mean that you have to smile all this damn time. Happiness does not mean that you have to disguise your anger, fear, sadness, disappointment, or any of the ten billion other emotions that people are especially gifted with. Happiness does not mean that you need to raise the front when everything collapses.

Fulfillment of any or all of the foregoing is a surefire successful label for such suffering, which is the antithesis of everything that means happiness.

Because if happiness meant anything from the above, I would quit my job and gladly joined the unhappy tribe long ago.
Imagine that your emotions are drawn on the line. Imagine that the line rises and falls with a change in emotional reactions and even moods. Your anger, joy, fear, stress, pain, excitement - every little passing emotional tremor creates ripples in the line.
Now imagine happiness as an outer cover - a permanent protective case that does not allow your emotional-line line to go completely bent or off the hook. The line still hesitates, still flowing freely with your emotions and moods - but with the encompassing of the all-encompassing happiness it always returns to its default position-the position of calmness and balance. In other words, your happy place.
A happy mind is not immune to emotions. And definitely not magically torn away from all the senses. He is also extraordinarily protected from maxima and lows of life.

On the contrary, a happy mind, a happy being, knows that emotions are crucial. Spraying them or throttling them is never a solution, but simply an idiotic and dangerous distraction - an illusion that is related to the reverse consequences.
However, a happy mind is better suited to emotions. And even when he willingly lets himself go with the flow of his current emotions and / or moods, including more negative ones such as anger, he always retains understanding and the ability to eventually return to his default position.
And this, perhaps, is the only definition of happiness that is applicable. It really and really makes sense.
Happiness is the ability to become attached to our own ideal state of mind - our happy place where we are in our quietest, best self. There is no prototype of this "ideal". It is subjective and inevitably changing from person to person. It is important for us to identify our own personal ideal, and then work on ourselves, identify the tools and methods that work for us, and educate ourselves to support this ideal as close as possible.
Happiness is more than emotion. This tool. A happy state of mind better copes with failure, is more creative, more productive and an important key to a holistic life.
In general, happiness is different for everyone. Choose your fortune and be happy.

[David Cooper]

How these school summer holidays are flying by , towards the end I have got to buy school uniforms, how absurd school uniforms are, more needless expensives in life.

The trick with uniforms (and some other clothing) is to buy the outer layers second hand from people who have clean, unadventurous children a bit bigger than yours; i.e. the less common kind of children who don't come anywhere close to wearing them out. Part of the deal has to be that the previous wearers of them must have no idea who they went to (and ideally they shouldn't even know that they've been passed on at all). It's worth asking around (secretly), as you might be able to save a good few quid, and in the process help someone else buy new stuff that you'll again be able to buy from them in good condition for a fraction of the cost next year. This clearly isn't ideal, but every pound saved in this way is an opportunity to improve your children's quality of life in other ways (it all adds up), just so long as the clothes are still in good condition and don't look significantly worn. In the same way, you might be able to sell your children's old uniforms on for a little money if they haven't worn (eroded) them too much. I suspect a lot of perfectly sound clothing simply ends up in the bin because no one asks.

If none of this turns out to be practical because you can't find any pre-owned clothes in good enough condition, then you should stop thinking of school uniforms as a needless expense - they would be wearing out other clothes otherwise and the expense would be much the same.

[alancalverd]

There's a lot to be said in favor of school uniform. Kids have to wear something, and supermarket mass-produced shirts and underwear are as good and cheap as anything else. Regulation blazers or fleeces mean that they don't spend the day worrying about being out of  fashion. The only problem is likely to be shoes, but again sensible schools insist on regulation black laceups so there's no shame in wearing last year's trainers.

[guest39538]

[guest39538]

Time for one last poem

cube was real
cube was really empty
meme +200
tears cup full
stress dire level
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
fault all yours
They then looked out towards the mud
and ate worms for their dinner
waiting for their daddy return
from shoplifting
because that is real
as daddy cries
as daddy cries
as daddy cries
cus now daddy
just wants to die...

[David Cooper]

If that's based on your own life, you need to blog about it and get the politicians involved. The country is letting millions of people like you down by failing to provide adequate support, but the public still doesn't see it. Get angry about it and show them.

If you haven't already done so, find out how to access food banks - go to the Citizen's Advice Bureau and set out your situation to them.

[guest39538]

 

If that's based on your own life, you need to blog about it and get the politicians involved. The country is letting millions of people like you down by failing to provide adequate support, but the public still doesn't see it. Get angry about it and show them.

If you haven't already done so, find out how to access food banks - go to the Citizen's Advice Bureau and set out your situation to them.

Thank you for caring David, my mental health is getting far better at a seemingly rapid pace.  I am managing to forget all the fake science I made up in my mind ,  also my compulsion to post nonsense is fading and I am slowly stopping the want/feel for the need to do science.  My internet is going off soon, this time I am not worried about tryin to raise money to keep it on, I will just let it go off and start to live again.  I plan on finding a job, go back and join the ''rat race'',  go do some mindless shelf stacking or something similar.   So if i don't  cya again, just cya...

[David Cooper]

A break from the Net can do a lot of good. You can return to it later with a new perspective and understand better how to prevent it dominating your time. A lot of people are going wake up some day and realise that they've wasted the best decades of their lives talking crap online with people they've never even met. Anyway, good luck, and keep in touch from time to time.